#22 Lifeblood

I have been wanting to write more, but I do not seem to get it done by the due date (I set for myself). I was beating myself up about it the other day, and then I saw this tweet from author Anne Lamott: **I included the post from Peter Enns because he has been [...]

Energizing Tears

It has been a couple weeks since my last post. Sorry for my delay. We were lucky enough to go to the beach last week, and I have not taken the time to sit down and write since returning home. I hope that you are well as you read this. I am up late (it [...]

The Pain Train

We have experienced an ungodly amount of change in the past year: We bought a house (Woot!) We fixed that house up (it is still a work in progress) Amy started a new job last fall My family story of origin has been altered drastically A bunch of our closest friends have moved away I have [...]

Flat Shoes are for Quitters

I do not like feeling unsettled, but I also get antsy when things begin settling down. I feel caught in this tension of what has been, what is, and what could be. I am perpetually reconciling myself to what has been in my life (good and bad). While also trying to solve my future. I [...]

Creational Feelings

Creation. All of creation groans to be put right (Romans 8.22). I feel that groaning within myself. I long to be put right. I desire healthy relationships. I desire vulnerability and wholeness. Yet, I cannot seem to nail it down.  I spend a lot of time stuck in the fear of failure - the fear [...]

Pre-Existing Together

"Pre-existing condition" What does that make you feel? Not great - if I had to guess. Unless you happen to own and operate an insurance business and believe this new Healthcare plan will pass. I know almost nothing about politics. I remember tuning out in school when being taught government. I was genuinely disinterested. I [...]

The Tribal Way

I need a "Tribal Allegiance." I need to know where I come from and how it defines me. Much help is required as I try to define, "me." This is why the old Marine commercials were so powerful on me as a kid, "The few, the proud, the Marines." I wanted to be part of a [...]

The Power of Release

I used to spend a lot of time concerned with the past. I would mull around in my headspace for hours about the fool I was, the mistakes I made, the ignorance with which I conducted myself, and the arrogance I maintained. I would beat myself up about it. I would lose precious moments in the Now paying my [...]

Heart Work

Coming home from grabbing an early meal at Chic-fil-a, my wife is on the phone with her mom explaining her new summer schedule for work. I am stopping and going with traffic trying to get back to the interstate to get home in time to get to basketball practice. I check my rear view mirror, and I see a car going full speed coming up on us while we are at a dead stop.

The Choice of Calling

The finality of a "calling" scares the rational side of my brain. It makes me feel claustrophobic or something. I get this antsy feeling in my skin. This anxious weight of the rest of my life begins to plague me. What is it about the future that is so scary...